at the end of april, i wrote about my temporary sort-of promotion.  i've been "filling in" for about 2 months now.  they said it was going to be a couple weeks... but i'm really not complaining because i love what i'm doing.  well, they posted an opening for the position so i applied for it.  i had my interview about 2 weeks ago and haven't heard anything (but, nobody has).  it's making me nervous and very impatient.  then... i called in sick on saturday because of my tooth & the drugs i've been taking making me feel like absolute poo. 

i'm worried that it's going to have an effect on my getting the position but i really couldn't help it.  i was in no shape to be out of bed, much less at work.  but, i haven't called in sick in months.  i just want the job SO bad.  there will probably be at least an email about it waiting for me when i get to work tomorrow (there may have been something sent on my days off... i don't know) but i fear it will be an email telling me thanks but try again next time.  and being sick just makes me more anxious about it.  i'm sure that my calling in sick wouldn't have any effect on the first round of interviews, they surely had that decision made before saturday.  but i'm still totally stressed out about it.  at first i was like "well, i MIGHT just get the job" and now i've gone straight downhill to "there's no way i got it".  all the time it is taking them to interview & make the decision has just made me rethink & overthink the interview & doubt everything about it & me.  if they really do put us thru a second round of interviews it would just be another couple weeks of torture. 

one good thing to come out of all this tooth drama is that i've lost over 10 pounds in the last couple days.  not being able to drink soda or eat... well... anything has helped my figure but not much of anything else.